You Will Never Feel 100% Ready.

Perfectionistic thinking has stopped me from doing many things, including starting a recovery account at the beginning of my journey because I feared that I would not be able to meet my own expectations. After months of deliberation, I’m fed up with worrying about the outcome, when in reality, I haven’t even taken the first step yet. I wanted everything to be planned out perfectly, which interrupted me from even setting up a profile. I finally smacked Ms. Perfectionist out of my head and uploaded a profile picture. I wrote a profile name that is special to me. I was scared but I was also genuinely excited to build a space that will not only advocate for mental health awareness but also help me recover.

This template was the first one that showed up on my Canva account; somehow, it resonated perfectly with how I’ve been feeling.

You will never feel 100% ready. But you will have to choose recovery eventually if you want to truly live.

So, what are you waiting for? Waiting for more chances of osteoporosis and a more damaged metabolism? Waiting for more life wasted obsessing over food? Waiting for more disconnection with others? Waiting for the emptiness in your heart to expand further?

I know that those motivational phrases are easy to say, but incredibly difficult to initiate real actions. Entrapped under the voice that had once promised you comfort and control, and now fighting to advocate for your own voice, nothing is seemingly easy. If that one voice fulfilled its promises, why are we here, suffering from even more damages than before? Why must we prolong the suffering?

You deserve recovery no matter how “sick” YOU THINK you are. That voice will never admit you are “sick enough.”

Note to self – don’t keep letting your mind stop you from achieving great things. Don’t let it be your biggest enemy. You don’t have to take on everything at once or be perfect. Start small. One step at a time. Nothing changes if nothing changes.